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title: "Chapter 1: The Perfect Façade"
slug: "ch-1"
novel: "my-school-life-pretending-to-be-worthless"
number: 1
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createdAt: "2015-05-01"
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Ayanokoji Kiyotaka had spent his entire life perfecting the art of invisibility. Not literal invisibility—he was quite visible at Tokyo Metropolitan High School—but social invisibility. The careful construction of ordinariness that allowed him to exist without drawing attention or generating complications.

His method was simple: be exceptional at appearing average. Moderate grades, careful classroom participation that never stood out, friendships maintained at precise distance without becoming meaningfully close. Calculated mediocrity in every metric that mattered for social observation.

This perfect balance was shattered by Suzune Horikita.

She was the class representative, brilliant and driven, with the kind of presence that naturally drew focus. When she confronted him in the hallway after class, her eyes held an uncertainty that was unusual for someone of her capability.

"There's something wrong with the school's evaluation system," she said without preamble. "The class rankings don't match actual academic performance. And you... your scores are mediocre, yet sometimes I notice you calculating things quickly. You're hiding your true ability."

Kiyotaka's pulse remained controlled. "I'm simply not particularly motivated."

"You're hiding," Horikita repeated with certainty. "And I need to know why, because I suspect knowledge of your true self might be useful for improving class standings."

This was the complication Kiyotaka had spent his entire school existence avoiding: genuine human connection with someone perceptive enough to reach past his façade.

"Leave me alone," he said, the words carrying finality. "Whatever perception you have of me is error. I'm genuinely ordinary."

But Horikita was not someone who accepted dismissal easily. Over the following weeks, her investigation into the school's evaluation system revealed something troubling: the entire institution was constructed as a sorting mechanism, designed to identify and segregate exceptional students from ordinary ones. Those performing well in the official metrics were rewarded. Those performing poorly were systematically isolated.

Ayanokoji's class had been designated as "failure class"—the receptacle for students who didn't fit the school's criteria for superiority. Their reputation was damaged, their opportunities limited, their futures predetermined as less-than.

Horikita realized that the only way to escape this classification was to have hidden exceptional students emerge and demonstrate capability. And she believed Ayanokoji was one such hidden student.

She wasn't wrong. But her understanding of his situation was dangerously incomplete.

Kiyotaka had been enrolled in this school deliberately, by individuals who wanted him in the "failure class" precisely because it was low-status. They wanted him to develop normally, to experience typical adolescence, to become something other than the instrument he'd been trained to be.

The school's true nature—as a sorting mechanism, as a system designed to identify and optimize human potential—was something Kiyotaka recognized immediately. It was the operational logic of his former circumstance, applied on a societal scale.

And his presence in failure class was no accident. It was exile. Rehabilitation. An opportunity to become human rather than remain a tool.

Horikita's investigation threatened to destroy that rehabilitation. If his capability became known, if his true nature emerged, then the handlers who'd allowed him this freedom would likely retrieve him. His freedom would end. He would become the instrument again.

Yet rejecting Horikita's request was equally problematic, because Ayanokoji's childhood training included comprehensive understanding of human psychology. He recognized that Horikita, despite her flaws, possessed genuine capability and integrity. She was operating from authentic desire to improve her class's situation, not from personal ambition disguised as collective good.

In such a situation, complete rejection would be cruel and counterproductive.

"I'm not what you think," Ayanokoji said finally, meeting her eyes. "But I am willing to help your cause. Partially."

Over the following weeks, Kiyotaka began a careful process of calculated revelation. He demonstrated exceptional ability in limited contexts, always with plausible deniability. He guided Horikita's investigation without revealing his true nature or the full extent of his capability. He advanced the class's standings through careful intervention that appeared circumstantial rather than directed.

But he remained hidden. The core of his identity, the truth of what he'd been created to be, remained concealed behind the façade of mediocrity.

The balance was precarious and would require constant maintenance. But it was necessary. Because becoming fully human meant retaining the right to keep secrets, to maintain boundaries, to choose isolation when it served self-preservation.

And Ayanokoji was not ready to surrender that right.
